Today we went to court and my middle child (oldest son) and his wife gave up the rights to their 15 month old daughter. We have been going to court and hoping another family member could get her sense she went into custody. Until a couple months ago we were told my son and his wife were wanting the family member to have their daughter and then when we went to court a couple months ago we were told that he and his wife had told the lawyers, kvc, and the foster parents that they didnt want our family member to have their daughter but want the foster parents to have her. How suprised i was to find out that for about a year i had being lied to about who they wanted to have the baby.
And the foster parents have told my son and his wife that they will always let them see their daughter anytime they want and that the entire family would always be part of the babys life, although my son and his wife doesnt understand that all the foster parents say to them before the papers are signed dont amount to anything. Once the papers are signed they can do whatever they want about the visits to my granddaughter, and if they choose they can keep all of us away and never have to let anyone see her again or know how she is doing.
And after all these months of them being in jail and the baby being in foster care today we go to court and they sign the papers to give up their rights to their daughter, I can not even come close to explaining how this saddens me. I feel as though my heart has been ripped out and stomped on. This is the worst feeling I think I have ever had and I am trying to figure out how I am susposed to be thankful for this giant mess we are in.
I know how it says in the bible that we are never given more than we can handle, and how we are to be thankful for everything, but it is so hard to do when I feel like my life is turned upside down. I feel so awlful because I just lost my granddaughter, it almost feels like she died- not just that they gave her up. I want to know why the attorneys and the judge told my son and his wife how what they did showed so much love for their daughter-- to me it does not show love, just more neglect and that they only wanted to save their own butts from going to prison - which they would of if they would have went to trial.
I fought so hard to keep all my kids, I was only 15 when I had my daughter and 17 when i my second child and 21 when I had my baby boy, and I never gave up- I worked jobs I hated and did so much to keep them a home and food and clothes, etc. and it makes me so sad to see how easy they gave in and just let the state have their child.
I pray- Dear Heavenly Father,
Please watch over Amy and Phoebe and protect them both, please let me see the good in this situation and not just the bad, please help me to get past this resentment I have in my heart for my son and his wife and the foster parents.
Thank you Lord for the little bit of time I did get to spend with them, and I pray that in heaven we will be reunited for eternity (even though they have not been sealed to me and are not members of the church-please let them know the truth when they are older.).   Amen.